Or at least feeling that way.
I had a parent teacher conference for Lucy today. Not like a special meeting with me and the teacher but just that time of year for all the parents.
In good news Lucy is ahead academically on all the things. Letters, sounds, shapes, numbers, counting etc etc. I wasn’t surprised about that. She’s been really interested in letters and that general thing for a long time.
Then the teacher said that she has noticed a difference in Lucy since the new baby. She said it’s nothing that’s unexpected. But just that she’s not as bubbly as she was before the baby came. Of course in my head I hear, “Your kid isn’t a happy kid anymore.” And rationally I don’t think that’s it. I think she wants to be home with us and Veronica (I mean she told Jason on the way to school the other day, “I don’t want to go to school because I want to be home with Veronica.”) and so isn’t as excited to go to her classroom. It’s also timed just right that we are at about 6-8 weeks into the school year. About the time that Lucy in the past has gotten over the newness of a classroom and turns to not wanting to go.
We’ve had some general attitude problems with her her at home. We think all normal behavior (according to The Google and the pediatrician).
If I was better.
If she could always get one on one time with us.
If we weren’t so tired.
I “know” that with time the three kid household will become the norm and attitudes will change. But for now it’s been harder for Lucy (and in turn us) than I thought it would be.
AND! I don’t know why I didn’t think it would be easier for her! She’s always ALWAYS had a problem with change. I don’t know why I didn’t prepare myself better for this.
I’m genuinely sad that she’s not as happy as she could be. And wish I could just give her some fairy dust that gets her over this hump and back to her bubbly self. In good news she’s not being mean to friends at school or not participating in the classroom. Just a slight bit of sadness. The teacher is good and talked to her and just said, “It’s just hard isn’t it Lucy?” To which Lucy agreed. And nice of the teacher to notice and talk to her about it and not just write her off as a sad kid.
All we can do is keep being a fun household (I don’t know how this helps her want to go to school though) and tell her we understand it’s hard. And hope with time it gets better.
But right now I just can’t help feeling like I’m doing all the things wrong.